Andrei has a complicated relationship with death; sometimes he claims he yearns for death, and other times he demonstrates a lust for life. So which is it that Andrei really feels?
We are clearly alerted of Andrei’s lack of value for his life when introduced to the classic scene with the oak tree. Andrei, on his way to the Rostovs, spots an old, decrepit oak tree and finds himself seeking kinship with this oak. Andrei engages in a dialogue about this oak, claiming “yes, [the oak is] right… let others, the young ones, succumb afresh to this deception, but we know life– our life is over!” (420). In his youth, Andrei has already determined that his life is no longer worth living. Upon seeing a dying tree, that is the image that Andrei finds most relatable. What more screams depression and a desire for death than comparing yourself to a dying tree?
And yet, despite this comparison and Andrei seeming quite sure of himself and his misery back at the oak tree, upon hearing Natasha sing and seeing the young girls come up to his carriage, his persona reverses. No longer does Andrei sing the tune of melancholy; he instead realizes that “no, life isn’t over at the age of thirty-one” (423). The simple act of hearing and seeing freedom and beauty around him, even in the fleeting moments of hearing the voice of a girl singing or the few glances of girls running about is enough to transform his entire outlook on life and his future. Andrei is clearly unstable. Surely, if he is so easily convinced of the worth of life, he must truly value his life and only momentarily lost sight of its value? But at the same time, if he truly valued his life, why should seeing a dying tree immediately spark such dark thoughts in him?
On the eve of the battle of Borodino, Andrei once again tosses his life aside, as if it is meaningless. When contemplating the battle and bloodshed to follow in the coming hours, Andrei predicts “‘and tomorrow I’ll be killed– not even by a Frenchman, but by one of our soldiers… and the French will… fling me into a pit, so as not to have me stink under their noses’” (770). Andrei says this so nonchalantly, as if this is a topic of casual conversation. No intense emotion is conveyed in this sentence; Andrei states this information like it is fact. He just verbalized that the following day would be the day of his death; that he would die, and then be tossed aside like a piece of meat out of convenience for the enemy. He speaks as though the fact that his life will be over, that he will cease to exist, is something he is perfectly fine with and completely accepts. The thought of his impending death does not evoke any kind of dramatic emotional response. While Andrei does pause for a moment to comprehend that the next day he may no longer be in this life, he moves on and seconds later runs into Pierre and the narrative continues. Andrei clearly gives very little value to his life in this moment, and does not seem to see any reason to view his death otherwise.
A mere day later, in the heat of the battle of Borodino, Andrei reclaims his desire to live and his appreciation for life. Andrei, lying on the ground after being shot, cries out “‘I can’t, I don’t want to die, I love life, I love this grass, the earth, the air…’” (811). Where did this wish to live come from? Less than twenty-four hours prior, he matter-of-a-factly accepted his death. Now, after being wounded in action, he longs for life? He goes as far as to say he loves life. After so much back and forth from Andrei, does he really want to die or does he want to live? It would seem that in this moment, after being shot, Andrei would speak his truest feelings; in such an emotional and traumatizing moment, he is likely diminished ot his true desires and thoughts, and that is to live. Without his conscious clouded with other thoughts of the external world, and in this moment, in shock and on the ground, it seems this is the purest form of Andrei’s emotions and desires. It would seem, despite his infrequent display of zeal for life, that Andrei truly does not want to die.
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Another interesting feature of this is the role that nature plays in Andrei’s perception of the value of his life. The oak tree, the plums that the girls picked and hid, the grass and earth he lies on, and earlier the “infinite sky” (281)… what does it all mean? Why is Andrei’s emotional state so closely linked to the surrounding nature, and why don’t we see that with other characters?